Romance is death...

My girlfriend had some disruption with the internet line at her office and the IT guys posted the message that "Internet is death!". As usual she found it hilarious! I thought about her and the fact that she will be going away to UK for masters and I can't help but re-think my decision to not pursue masters in UK. It seemed like such a waste. Maybe I am like a bit too idealistic when it comes to love. I guess I am still searching for the one. Which I thought I have found. But romance in my relationship is as good as death. And I guess I am trying to find it in me to re-surrect it. Or am I?

I am bored out of my wits at this point and I guess this morning when he had so many expectations from me and for me to do a lot of things and to make so much effort to make things work I guess I just felt overloaded. If before this I would have continued with a heavy heart I discarded everything and went about with my life as if that silly conversation I had with him did not happen.

I am re-thinking UK. In fact I have emailed this guy in UK to write a reference letter for me. I need to explore this option properly. And if I have to beg, steal and borrow the money to go then so be it. I don't know if I am staying on in this relationship because I am just too lazy or because I enjoy the comfort it offers me. After all I get the stay FOC at his place and save a lot money, which till now I can't coz I keep spending them on shoes. But shoes is a necessity for me and I can't do without it.

I joined a gym. A better and hipper one. Too bad my BF crashed the car but that's a different post all together. Too tired to relive the experience. Yes, I was in the car. I had to cancel the gym twice because I have no transport and have to rely on my friend. Great right!

Oh did I say, I am going to Switzerland again. For 2 weeks. Hopefully that will give me ample time to further sit down and reevaluate my lazy ass of a life. So Zurich and Geneva, here I come....and maybe London as well enroute : p